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Hello

i love him.
he's perfect.
he's my baby.
i'm SOO glad i got back with him.
we haven't had one SINGLE argument yet! (yn)
literally, i don't care what people think.

I LOVE CONNOR PASCOE.

:D

Yours with LOOOOOOVE,
Hannah xxx

:)

I've been pretty good today, actually.

2 glasses of apple & rasberry juice
1 stawberries and cream frappachino from starbucks (SOOO nice!)
some water

10 grapes
1 apple
1 packet of kellogs bite things
1 portion of bangers and mash and beans

:)

it's all good.

Yours with coldness,
Hannah xxx

:)

Hello

he makes me happyyyyy :)
and i love him, and i'm going on holiday with him and i can't WAIT :)

Yours with love,
Hannah xxx

I'm fucking useless

Hello

i'm useless. i eat a lot.
tomorrow, i shall not eat. except for dinner.

i'm well happy now i'm with connor :) and it's kinda shite when people are like 'whyy?! he's a twat!' and i'm like 'actually, he HAS been. but he's proved to be lovely recently, and i love him :)' and it gets me down when people have a go and are like 'AGAIN?!' it's like 'yes actually. again'

Yours with mostly-happyness,
Hannah xxx

Shitttttt.

Hello

this weekend has been full of shit. i have eaten nothing but calories.

but nikki and i found some nice turkish guys :L and i found that blond guy who kept smiling at me, and nikki said he was a gimp :L

and yeahh, saw connor today...
i'm in a but of a pickle with him.

i'll come out and say it: Yes. I love him still.
but i'm afraid about what people are going to say.
something like 'I KNEW IT!' or 'BUT HE HAD SEX WITH SOMEONE ELSE!'
yep. i know he did. i hated him for it. but i'm pretty much over it.
I love him. i HAVE to get over it.

Yours with confuseness,
Hannah xxx

I hate my life today.

Hello

fuck the world.

1) Miss Morgan wouldn't let us off P.E.
2) During P.E. i hurt my leg
3) I didn't understand maths at ALL today
4) My french horn lesson was shit and a waste of time
5) I had double science and an ISA
6) My mum suddenly changed her mind 15 mins before connor was die to come round that she didn't want him round cos she was running late at work, and didn't want another repeat of 'last time' (mirror incident).
7) I got pissed off, and walked out of the house without telling her, and met with Connor.
8) She phoned me 30 mins later and asked where the hell i was and said if i wasn't back by 6:00 i'll be in 'BIG trouble' and hung up.
9) I came home at 5:45 and have ignored her since. I don't think she cares, and if she yells, I shall simply leave the house or swear non-stop at her, and rebel even more.

FUCK. MY. LIFE.

I shall keep you updated, incase anything changes.

Yours with I-FUCKING-HATE-HERness,
Hannah xxx

I'm a twat

Hello

it's not day 15.
it's day 16.
forget i'm alive :L

Yours with douchebagness,
Hannah xxx

Day 15

Hello


FUCK YOU ALL, COS I'M BACK ON TRACK! :)

Yours with stick-itness,
Hannah xxx

Day 14 (if it even counts)

Hello

i may just NOT eat.
i think that's what i'll do :)

Yes.
i will do that!

good plan, captain :)

Yours with boredness,
Hannah xxx

Gay 13?

Hello

i cbf to write out what i ate today. i had a takeaway curry cos it's my brother's birthday. otherwise i've been fine :)

i'll write tomorrow

Yours with lazyness,
Hannah xxx

Day 13

Hello

1 glass of apple juice
1 diet coke
1 glass of grape and peach juice
1 glass of water
1 nutella Shake Away (SOO worth the calories!)

2 weetabix in milk
1 KFC meal (:$)
1 portion of roast dinner
1 apple
3 pieces of gum

not fantastically healthy, but there we go.
tomorrow i shall have a energy filled breakfast, and then not eat much for lunch and then have dinner :)
back into the swing of things ;)

Yours with i'm-not-doing-wellness,
Hannah xxx

Day 12

Hello

sorry, i had a really late night last night. but i ate fairly healthily apart from the pizza dinner ;)

today:

1 glass of orange juice
1 hot chocolate
1 cup of tea
some water

1 bowl of cornflakes
3 small pieces of bread
1/2 a slice of lemon drizzle cake
1 portion of chicken stew and potato
1 slice of treacle tart

omg
i feel well sick, too.

i'm going off track :/

btw, the ballet (rom and jul) was AMAZING :)

Yours with off-trackness,
Hannah xxx

Day 10

Hello

I need to be hit with several large bats.

1 glass of apple juice
1 cup of tea
some water

1 weetabix and bran flakes in milk
1 youghurt
1 panini
1 apple
1 cookie
1 donut
1 portion of sausages, potato and peas
10 gummy sweets

KILL ME NOW. i'm meant to be good! but my mum keeps buying unhealthy stuff!! :(

i SHALL be good. however, tomorrow evening could be hard. but I WILL eat well tomorrow.
promise promise promise.

Yours with ashamedness,
Hannah xxx

Random

Hello

I also thought i should update you on events too, instead of just my food.

connor and i are 'friends' again now, though he keeps trying to prove that he loves me..
i'm not complaining :P
but it's sweet.

I'm also going to Belton Woods with him again in February.. should be good :)

Biology exam tomorrow. Shitting myself. I'll fail, but I'll try! :)

Umm there's not much else atm..

my dad's home, though. I actually missed him.
and i've also been given permission for a 16th birthday party! though i'm not allowed it at home .. :/
not surprised though.
and on Friday, jess and I are going to see Rom and Jul! :)
should be awesome.
and Saturday my nan is coming down and my fam and evie's fam are going to the cinema, and then i'm sleeping at evie's (i think)

Sunday is Chemistry revision.

Monday is chemistry exam and my brother's birthday..

on the 30th i'm getting my hair trimmed and highlighted by my hairdresser :)
can't waittttt.

Yours with happyness,
Hannah xxx

Day 9

Hello

PLEASE don't kill me. i've eaten loads of shite today.

1 glass of cranberry juice
1 hot chocolate
1 cup of tea
1 cup of apple juice
lots of water

1 weetabix with a few bran flakes in milk
1 portion of chicken curry
1 ice lolly
3 squares of brownie
1 cookie
1 (small) portion of spag bol
2 dates

so yes. i'm feeling VERY fat. don't worry about that.
tomorrow, i shall have a good breakfast for energy for the bloge exam, and then have nothing for lunch except for maybe an apple, and then i shall have dinner and nothing else.
and i shall drink only 1 glass of apple juice in the morning, then only tea and water.

Yours in determined-and-unhealthyness,
Hannah xxx

Day 8

Hello

today:

1 cup of tea
1 glass of cranberry juice
1 fruit shoot
lots of water

1 weetabix in milk
1 satsuma
1 apple
2 special K bars
1 portion of (very nice) roast dinner

I'M BACK IN THE GAME, BABY! :)

and my daddy's home :)

Yours with backontrackness,
Hannah xxx

Day 7! :)

Hello

wow, it's been a whole week of (fairly) healthyness!
i've NEVER lasted this long on a diet before! :):)
(BE PROUD OF ME! :L)
I'm not exactly religous about the diet though, tbh :L

today's food:

1 glass of orange juice
2 cups of tea (love Mr Skinner :L)
1 glass of lemonade (brother told me it was water 8-))
Lots of water

1 weetabix in milk
1 pack of kellogs bites things
3 biscuits (once again, mr skinner :L)
1 hot cross bun
1 portion of chicken pie and beans

so yeah, not too bad.. but not my best :/
week 2 WILL be better. and i'm going to buy some scales at some point, to start making sure i'm losing weight, and this isn't all for nothing.

Yours with an-itchy-neckness,
Hannah xxx

Day 6

Hello

today I have eaten VERY unhealthily, because connor fed me lots this evening.
tomorrow, i WILL be better :)

1 glass of orange juice
1 glass of sprite
1 bag of stupid baked heathy crisps
5 slices of domino's pizza
1 ice cream sundae (wowwww it was good!)

but yeah. :)

Yours with unhealthyness,
Hannah xxx

Day 5

Hello

Sorry i didn't write yesterday- evie was round so i couldn't.
but this is what i had yesterday:


4 cups of tea
1 glass of diet coke
1 weetabix in milk
1 bag of (low fat baked) crisps
1 small slice of coffee and walnut cake
1 portion of chicken curry

so yeah, i ate a lot. but i'm going round connor's for dinner later, so i'm going to eat LOADS :S
it's just to talk, for those who are wondering.
but yeah, i'm not going to eat ANYTHING all day until this evening.
so i've have a glass of orange juice, and that'll be all till later :)

Yours with nervousness,
Hannah xxx

Day 4

Hello

today, i have not been anywhere near as hungry as i usually am.

I've had:

1 cup of tea
1 bottle of flavoured water (i was in sainsburgerz and VERY dehydrated)
1 weetabix in milk
1 fairy cake
1 portion of spag bol (leftover :/)
1 small piece of baguette, which wasn't very nice

completely off-topic, but i'm so glad we've had 3 (practically) snow days! Matthew's got the day off on Monday, too! Lucky..

Michael came round today, too, which was fun :)

I'm pretty bored now though, tbh. and it's meant to snow more on Saturday night and during the day on Sunday :/

Yours with i-think-this-is-going-well-ness,
Hannah xxx

Day 3

Hello

i've not been so healthy today, again. but like i said, i ate breakfast!

1 weetabix in milk
2 cups of tea
1 glass of squash
2 fairy cakes (homemade by moi, and bloody good!)
1 portion of spag bol

et voila :)

c'est tout!

until tomorrow, i guess...

btw, 3 SNOW DAYS! :D:D

Yours with feelingbetterness,
Hannah xxx

Day 2

Hello

i've eaten more today than yesterday, and not very healthily, and it sounds silly, but the diets already given me headaches and i feel kinda achy :/

here's what i ate/drank:

5 cups of tea
1 glass of lemonade
1 mocha
3 ladels of soup
1 piece of toast
1 portion of curry
1 (very) small piece of chocolate pudding with half a spoon of ice cream

so yeah. i ate more, but if i hadn't eaten that chocolate pudding, i may have starved from starvation.. :S

i'll be better tomorrow! promise!
and i've taken the advice of my mother, and am going to eat breakfast - 1 weetabix in milk.

Yours with day-two-ness,
Hannah xxx

Day 1

Hello

today, i have eaten:

2 apples
1 satsuma
1 mini sausage roll
1 piece of bread (yes, i know. CARBS! lol)
1 bowl of vegetable soup
1/4 of a sausage pikied from my brother's plate :)
fuck loads of water and a cuppa tea

know what else?
i'm not even that hungry :)

Yours with bring-on-day-two-ness,
Hannah xxx

new me.

Hello

it's taken a while, but i've decided on my New Years Relolution.

I'm going on the Atkin's diet.

i've got fat everywhere. my face, my stomach, my legs, my back, my hips!
EVERYWHERE.

so, from tomorrow, I can only eat healthy stuff. no carbs.
no bread
no pasta
no butter
not much meat
no chocolate
nothing sweet
no cereals
no potato based products
no yoghurt

fuck all, basically.
what can i eat?

vegetables
fruit
sometimes chicken
some nuts

i think that's all :L

and all i can drink is water.

Friends - make SURE i stick to this!!!
i'm relying on you!
call me fat, if you must.

WISH ME LUCK!

Yours with already-hungryness,
Hannah xxx

Happy New Year! and all of that...

Hello

well, as you know, New Year's day was the other day, and i stupidly agreed to go round Duncan's house (connor's brother) and swearing never to see or speak to Connor again, seeing as he had sex with my friend, kissed another one and then smashed my mirror in a fit of annoyance. But yeah, so I went round, and ended up basically, spending all evening with Connor and Connor's friend James, who is i loovely btw lol. But yeah, i was a little bit drunk, or tipsy. which ever you prefer, and i may have kissed Connor.

I know. And i've been regretting it ever since. And now Connor thinks something's changed and we have to be friends again. I said no, of course. not sure how long i'll hold up. but I have to try and be strong... Never mind. things happen, so i've literally just told him about a little incident that happened after we broke up, involving another boy, and i'm seeing how he'll react. I think he'll be a bit pissed off, but that's the idea - I want him to stop pestering so we can both move on with our lives.

Ahh well.

Happy New Year, readers.

Yours with a cough,
Hannah xxx